The Power of Being As If You Already Are The Person You Want to Be

If you want to live a life you’ve never lived, you have to do things you’ve never done.

- Jen Sincero

Yesterday, after finishing an inspiring morning routine, completed with journaling, meditation, reading, affirmations, yoga, and a long run in the rain, I felt so high. Not the kind of high induced by drugs, but the kind of high induced by pure enthusiasm for life. This highness was the kind of high that had me feeling invincible -- not anyone nor anything was going to disrupt this feeling. The frequency at which I was vibrating was energizing. I was deeply connected to my ideal life, embodying a state of abundance, knowing of my ability to inspire and heal, and understanding the limitless potential within me. I was filled to the brim with love for all that I am and all that I am capable of doing in this lifetime.

At the time, I was thinking that this energy state was going to last forever. But within an hour, it vanished. I took zero action. It wasn’t that something happened to drain my energy, it was that nothing happened to sustain my energy. I took zero action. My soul was on fire, so ready to step into this reality I intimately knew was mine to experience, yet I did nothing about it. Why??

Looking back on this quandary and asking myself what happened, the answer is simple in retrospect...I didn’t take action. But why wouldn’t I take action? I felt so empowered dreaming of this idealistic life that I knew I was capable of manifesting, yet for some reason that wasn’t enough to kick things in gear for me. The joy I felt was replaced with something else...something not so joyous. And that not so joyous thing that replaced my high vibe was self-sabotage.

Ahh, the illusive guardian, the overly protective parent, the shell I retrieve into when the world asks me to do something that is unfamiliar, unknown, and uncomfortable. This is an illusion. It’s not real, Sarah. It’s merely a safe excuse to stay in your comfort zone. But don’t...don’t stay here.

This is what I know right now: my days are unfolding in the same way they have for several months now. Feelings of invincibility arise early, lasting throughout my morning into the early afternoon. Then, that thing that kills joy happens… that thing called self-sabotage. I do the same things I always do, which are the same things that dissolve my confidence, invincibility, enthusiasm, and love for who I am. I put out the fire in my soul by choosing to do what I am familiar with because it’s easy and cunningly safe.

“We choose different illusions and definitions of safety and denial rather than listening and acting. We refuse to move as it feels too risky to follow some unknown direction guided by our heart and soul." - Sarah Blondin 

I am aware that I am restricting and resisting my growth by staying where I am comfortable, by staying in the places, routines, and habits I know all too well. Growth does not take place here. And neither do dreams. Growth is hindered here and dreams are neglected. 

Doing something different is necessary. I know this to be true. The action I am taking is not serving me on any level, except for comfort, so I need to change something, DO something radically different so I can sustain the joyous energy.

So what do I have to do? What is the next right step? This is something I am working through right now as I am writing this blog. It is in fact the very reason I am writing this blog. Writing this blog is what the version of myself I dream of being would be doing right now. Does that make sense? Maybe not, so let me take one step backward and explain how I got here...

To get to where I am right now, writing this blog, I asked myself a question, and that question was this: “What would the version of yourself you dream of becoming do right now? Be as if you are that person.” 

Asking this question killed the illusive guardian and the fire in my soul was reignited. 

What would I do today if I were a New York Times bestselling author, or if I had millions of people following my blog, or if I were a philanthropist, activist, contributing to and changing the lives of others on some great scale? What would I do? How would my day go? What would I be committed to and not committed to? What practices would I implement? Who would I be talking to and who would I not be talking to? I’m only thinking about today, right now, because that’s all I have. Tomorrow is a new day, so my answers will be different. Honing in on what I do today -- who would I show up as? 

I decided to show up as this version of me, the one who is deeply connected to her ideal life, embodying a state of abundance, knowing of her ability to inspire and heal, and understanding the limitless potential within her. I am filled to the brim with love for all that I am and all that I am capable of doing in this lifetime. 

Be as if...Be as if…